First Night

I woke up early this morning and heard the shower running. I thought Jon was getting ready for work and would soon be in to kiss me a good morning.
A typical morning.
In my sleepy haze, I realized I was home, my roommate was in the shower and Jon was no where near.
Reality.
I keep telling myself, just a few more days and I will be okay again and happier then I ever was.
I rolled over, grabbed my Diva and snuggled back to sleep. 
Everything that I want, is gone.
...which is exactly what I want.
Bitter sweet.