Monday, September 19, 2011

bad guy

I have something that I want to talk about.
How is it that I have dealt with Jons "past" maliciously attacking our relationship, specifically me, and doing things to make my life miserable... and admitting to it, but I'm the bad guy?
I have stuck out all the crazy shit that has been done to me.
I am willing to wait 6 months for Jon to come back.
I have dealt with so much that any girl would have left the second they realized what "crazy past" they'd have to deal with.
But somehow I am the bad person?
I am the bad person because after 6 months of dealing with AT LEAST one thing from his past a week, I tell him I'm not okay with them being friends.
I was completely okay with them being friends at first.
Then the drinks being thrown on me at the bar started.
Oh, I'm not even going to get into it 'cause it's just not the person that I am.
After months of bullshit, and trying so hard to let Jon continue the friendship,
I snap.
And no, I don't snap on "his past".
Although most people definitely would have.
But out of respect for Jon, I do not.
I snap inside.
Telling Jon that I simply can not deal with it anymore.
I physically, mentally and emotionally can not do it anymore.
And he can make a choice.
Because I have tried every possible thing to try to respect that he wants his past as his friend.
While being attacked on a weekly basis,
And the only other option is to choose.
I love Jon, and would never make him choose.
So I leave.
And I'm the bad guy?

1 comments:

  1. Ha! You are not the bad guy!! Open your eyes lady and see it's not you it is the other 2. I don't know you or him or her obviously but I do know and have been in way to many bad relationships. I say run for the hills! He should be on your side and stick up for you and say see ya later crazy ex and if he's not then that's a bad sign. You know that I know you do. Sometimes you can be friends with an ex and it's fine but sometimes it's not possible and it's not fair to the 2 in the relationship. You seem like a great girl, you don't need to take the crap! It's a sign if he's not willing to say see ya later to the ex.

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